Mom

So am sitting in my car today with my 2 youngest boys, trying to think of something to do. And all that I think of is how great it would be to go to mom's house to hang out until my 6 yr old get out of school. Then I realize that I will never be able to do this again. I think of how much she missed in our lives. She never got to be a part of 2 youngest lives. They will never know her. They will never know what a great grandma they had or how she would've spoil them! There will never sleepovers a grandmas house. She will never be at there sports events or see there major achievements in life! It is so hard to realize that this is forever! She is gone forever! I just want to hear her voice once more, give her a hug, hold her hand or just say I love you once more!