Not pregnant!

Well my AF came on saturday so that means no baby for me. I can't believe how upset I feel over not being pregnant. I have never had to try before and I wanted this so bad, that it really hurts. I am taking a break and going to enjoy the holiday. I need a little bit of a stress free holiday. This ttc a girl was very stressful, even though I only tried 1 month. Maybe in a few months we will try again.